A New Life Begin...

Since a lot of incidents happened, now finally become more peaceful. As time goes by, exam is coming soon. I'm really in a very stressful situation. Even though i spent a lot of times in my study, however those homeworks still cannot finish. The stress that i face is just like i faced two government exams when i was in Form 3. Everyday scare that i will drop my top position. Everone challenged me therefore i really cannot relax myself. Sometimes when i cannot do some of the additional maths questions, i will become very nervous sometimes may even cry. But i know that i have to be always strong. I cannot let anyone that have an high expectation to me disappointed. I hope i can do that...

However, talk about my relationship with my friends in my class, i will say that my relationship with them has been improved a lot. Me and kwee, my god brother are quite good. He has changed a lot in mentally thinking and i can see his improve through his class test. I think that he really begin wants to pull up his socks and buck up. He said that he wants to get the first 20 position in 3 sec4 express classes. I believe he can do that...

For me and henry, both of us are still friends. Sometimes are quite close when he's in good mood sometimes may not when he' in bad mood. Like recently he sick so seldom bother me. Sometimes, i feel like my feeling towards him is not trully real when he ignore me. He knew what's my feeling towards him so both of us have a promise which is within these few months we are like close friends and understand each other well, after o level then decide want to stead or not. I think this is one of the way to lead us become even more closer. I hope that my aim can achieved...

Frustrated!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Recently, I faced a big problem in my relationship with my classmates. It was like a drama series that ur all always watch in Korean drama. But please trust me! It's true!

First, it involved three guys named hart, henry n kwee. We knew each other since last year i came into this class. Initially, i and kwee had rumour in class as both os us always close to each other. Afterwards, our relationship leads to another stage as both of us became sworn sibling. Therefore, from that moment i treated him as my younger brother. Since then, he had a girlfriend which is from lower secondary. I saw both of them are quite sweet however i felt a sudden change in their relationship. Jealousy from his girlfriend stroke me. She doesn't like both of us always close each other although she knew that both of us are siblings. Therfore, i tried to avoid stay very close to him however he still doesn't do any "precaution" to let his girlfriend feel pleased to me. He sometimes may also said tht he wished 2 break with his girlfriend. I don't know the reason but i scared that his girlfriend will misunderstood me as kwee treated me very well. Most of classmates mentioned that both of us like a pair of couple. I really don't know what to do although kwee's girlfriend had told him what she thinks about me n kwee relationship...

Secondly, there is a guy named henry who is an Indonesian Chinese. He treats me quite well and as time goes by, I crushed with him. We talk, msn and also message in quite a vey happy manner. Erm...appearance also not bad and his academic performance is better than mine. Therefore, for instance both of us are inproving our relationship and he never rejected to ignore me as i think that he already knew what my feelings towards him..

Finally, also a Indonesia Chinese named Hartono that i feel irritating. He now almost everyday messaged me since he had indirectly confessed to me. Ask me those stupid questions like "what am doing now?", "eaten already?", or even "sleep already?" I tried to convince myself that in is just a concern from a friend however it can't...In addition, he is henry's one of the buddy. What can i do so that i will not hurt him as i could not accept him? And also how will not cause he and henry's reationship worsened when hartono know that i was close with henry..i really got no idea..

CT finally over le..^^

Hu..common test finally over le..the common test week feel like very long. Hmm...for me..this time my result is quite pleasant. Some results are out of my expectation like biology, add maths n etc. However some are did damn badly. Like my social studies test, i just only got 3 out of 18 marks. It's really felt bad when i took that paper. I long time no fail le..LOL..

However, it's just only commonn test. It didn't influence my o level result. However, it gives me a big encouragement for me to do even more better during mid year, prelium and o level. But..nw i very lazy to finish my homework..LOL..^^

~GAMBATEH! JIN YEE~

~U CAN DO BETTER THAN ANYONE ELSE!~

Wad a boring VALANTINE'S DAY

Every year when this day come, i feel very boring as i have already been single for 16 years. However, this year the feeling is more stronger as i really wish to stead this year. But the most important issue for me of not stead is because this year i have o level exam so i target myself of having a boyfriend after o level. LOL. But it's not i want to have then can have it.

Sometimes, u may just can look at the person that u like at a far distance. How would you feel when he told you that he missed his ex-girlfriend untill now although it has been 3 years? I not dare to tell that i like him but is part of the crush as his behaviour is similar with the guy that i knew since primary 1. Confusion filled inside my mind. I hoped that we have chance however i scare the truth may even caused our relationship become worsened. If it is like that i rather he doesn't know the truth forever...